Decisions Decisions

These are not the easy kind

Life moves fast… so does schizophrenia.

The last two weeks have flown past. The refill notification popped up on a txt & it’s time to get things taken care of.

It’s almost time to get back to the dentist and I am not sure Mija wants to go. But she also mentioned that if she doesn’t go back for the cleaning the dentist is not going to proceed with the fillings that she desperately needs. That’s a decision for this week. The appointment is Thursday afternoon. I’ll have to call ahead if she decides to cancel. This one is her mouth so she can decide.

We had some hard news to hear Thursday and Friday.

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Divina had therapy with a her new female therapist. Luckily is it someone she knew from the intake interviews. This helped Divina relax some, she remembered the therapist but not much detail from those first visits in mid January.

Since that time in the beginning, we’ve acquired an LPRN psychologist to facilitate the medication. We’ve managed to get a shot every month despite the outrageous cost of this medicine. IDK how others are able to procure this med. Divina qualified as a hardship case and the MFG physically mails samples to the LPRN or Pharmacy.

We’ve been to twice with a male therapist. He really was a great guy, very patient with her and knowledgeable. It took forever to get an appointment with him and the 2nd appointment too. While we waited for the third appointment, Divina asked me to not go, due to him being male. We were getting close to conversations regarding what the guardians are doing to her. She just was not comfortable enough with a man to continue.

The request to change to a female therapist was also a process. We had to get permission to change from male to female. It took weeks, in person, because nothing happens on the phone here. Then we had to make an appointment and wait in the cue again for the lady therapist. Nothing like rapid action for the mentally ailing in the US.

I cannot complain at all. I have no right to.

My daughter has been treated with the utmost care and kindness. She has received medicine, doctors, treatments. It is just a very slow process. If I had been a hothead, we’d have never made it this far. Gratitude is the theme in all of our experiences with the clinic and staff. We are extremely grateful for them and their help.

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Now, during the visit Thursday, our new therapist spoke quite openly, yet with kindness and concern, but did not mince words. This disease is a lifetime diagnosis. It could have bad and better times. It will never have all gone times with current medical treatments. Of course we are hopeful in the advancement of medicine and therapies.

It’s very plain-

• Medicine will be necessary for the rest of her life if we don’t want her to be catatonic again.

• Any lapse in medicine can make it less or completely ineffective if returned to using it.

• Losing 1 medicine is like losing a finger or toe, you don’t get it back

• The voices will never completely go away

We will call the Therapist Bree- Bree was also very patient with my baby girl. She allowed me to be present per Divinas request. I would gladly wait outside, but very little would get accomplished. Plus allowing me to just sit with her lets me hear and learn things that she is simply not allowed to tell me directly. I’ve learned more about her guardians in 3 visits than all 9 months of her being back in the house.

All in all, it was a very positive experience for Divina. It was somber and sobering for me, because I understood everything said. My heart is just breaking for my daughter. She seems unaffected at all.

That seems to be the hardest part of the medicine. I have her back mentally, but her emotions are locked up in Pandora’s box and the devil ate the key.

Friday was the Lawyer appointment. I have to get Divina tucked in so I’ll write about it next time.

Night Night 🎆

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LaLa👋