Diary Monday July 29

The unknown of the day

Monday is a bit uneasy for me as I  go to work early with Divina still sleeping.  I tend to check on her whenever I leave the house, but this morning it slipped my mind.  It was foggy out and obviously it was foggy in my mind as well.  

Writing this out is the best, for me to realize where I'm slipping up & how often things are falling thru the cracks.

I should have checked on her before I left as a bed check.

She was a bit giddy last night about a new chat buddy she was talking to. Chatting has been our biggest challenge. She has taken off a couple times to just meet strangers she has just began talking too. To hang out or go for a ride. 

This has led to her being compromised sexually at least twice, that she has told me.  She couldn’t hold the info in for very long, since we’ve always had VERY open communication. It was stinging her conscience to have lost my favorite shirt when the so n so didn’t give it back. 

There are so many levels to this…. The point 👉 I need to check.

It is necessary to check every morning and every night. Just to be sure I don’t have to file a police report.

I use the opportunity to share some affection. A caress on the cheek or foot, whichever is out from under the covers.  Just a signal, I know you're here. I care enough to check.  Let’s connect later, after work. Please be here when I get home.

We can go into it deeper another time.  Tonight, it’s important that I actually spend time to focus on her.  

Who would have ever imagined a baby so innocent & beautiful would grow up to be so troubled inside of her own head. It’s simply…. I don’t know….

I want to keep a positive attitude, but it’s so difficult. Yet, we still don’t know what blessings this diagnosis will bring. Maybe our tribe is out there, and can lead us to a brighter side.

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She asked for noodles, after we’d already returned from the grocery store.  Awkward, that she didn’t ask while we were out. She is not the same person any longer, the logic is just gone, and I must love this beautiful woman as she is.

I just warmed some broth and put some noodles in it.  I’ll have to keep those around more for emergency dinners, after the grocery store. 🥹

She did enjoy it, so I’m going to enjoy her enjoying it.

Night Night

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Stay Positive | Be Blessed | Share Often

LaLa 👋