What are we in for?
Today, Jesus spoke to me. He told me that He [in Shade’s body and with Shade’s voice] had too many feelings while watching a show about his earthly life.
I asked the person speaking from my daughter’s mouth if it were Shade or who. The response was Jesus. It reminded me of the old movie of Sybil. It was my daughter but it was not my daughter. It was Jesus speaking from my daughter’s body. IDK how to explain this without sounding crazy myself.
Tonight, Shade was watching her favorite show “The Chosen.” Obviously a topic of interest to her due to the elements of the guardians who speak to her internally. She had to pause, which she does for some shows when she is interested in the story line. She has to pause to digest the dialogue between the characters.
She said she had to pause, and Jesus presented himself verbally to say that it’s kind of hard to watch your own life this way. That it brings up so many feelings.
This is coming from a young lady, who has yet to cry for being abandoned, or shed even a tear regarding any pain, or any reason at all frankly. There has only been hysterical outbursts of uncontrollable laughter. Something she calls a tick, or a grimace. She sometimes tries to elaborate, but gets only a word or two when she stops, or pauses.
Right now during this TV pause, She lays on her side with the remote in her hand, sweeping the fur from the blanket into one direction. Somewhat like a compulsion to put it in order. The expression on her face is contentment, while she hears something inside that does not bring fear.
The braids in her hair are examined in a stemming type of movement, and then her attention focuses to the back of the remote where she opens and closes the battery door several times before going back to sweeping the fur.
These are the good days.
Today she spoke. She asked for dinner from Fresh Kitchen and I had to decline. She then asked for two other restaurants, I declined again, explaining that I cannot take her out to eat every single day. She would need to be content with the things we had purchased already to care for our hunger. It didn’t get any pushback.
We do have an afternoon planned with Tio P tomorrow. It will provide some relief for both Divina & me as well.
I don’t know how to feel about the exchange I had today with Jesus. It is somewhat frightening for me. I don’t want to jump to any conclusions, but just accept that she believes it is him. She asked about his wife a little bit later. I have to be cautious with my words. If I say the wrong thing without even knowing what is the right thing, it could cause her to completely shut down the conversation.
That is the only thing, keep my hopes alive, the conversations, the little bits of life in the eyes. The tiny crumbles of information that slip out between the cracks.
Well it’s time to get back to the show.
Stay Positive | Be Blessed | Share Often
LaLa 👋
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