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Mat Poehler's avatar

Wow. I'm glad you shared what you did. I really hope the best for you. "As long as she is not in danger, or hurting herself or another, we leave her be while she walks around in circles or lines." I think that's the right approach. I really hope her medications kick in. It takes some time sometimes. I was paranoid for 2 1/2 months before the medications enabled me to feal safe.

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LaLa ✿Indie Maker✿'s avatar

It’s been 15 months, she was almost catatonic when she was diagnosed, so it appears it may take awhile.

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Sarah  Hawkins (she/her)'s avatar

Which cult were you brought up in and when/how did you leave and make your life your own?

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LaLa ✿Indie Maker✿'s avatar

I was brought up as a Jehovah’s Witness, and left at age 40+ in 2006

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Sarah  Hawkins (she/her)'s avatar

What was it that led you to think “I’m just not buying into this belief system/way of life anymore”? The way these cults work is a bit like grooming, the way they take over every waking moment and all your resources. How difficult was it to escape and start over?

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LaLa ✿Indie Maker✿'s avatar

They made the mistake of teaching us to read and study for ourselves. So I followed the instructions to read the Bible daily. When we got into the Revelation, too many of the prophecies had "modern day fulfillment" in a very small group of humans. The ones who could tell others how to interpert and live their lives.

It was impossible to leave because my mother was alive and family would shun me if I left, so I just stopped going and didn't tell anyone for a long time. Then they drifted away too. But I raised Shade in the church as a child and her subconscious recorded all that knowledge from HOURS and HOURS of studying. This is who is speaking to her in her head currently.

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Sarah  Hawkins (she/her)'s avatar

This makes so much sense. No wonder you have had a tough time of it. I hope you can find a good therapist who can help you and eventually Shade make sense of it all.

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Rea de Miranda's avatar

My heart goes out to you and Shade. You are in my thoughts, and close to my heart! I'm here for you Lala. 💞💞

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LaLa ✿Indie Maker✿'s avatar

I’ve really appreciated your support and kindness. Thank you so much🫶💕

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Ral Joseph's avatar

So much postcards and details and I'm already feeling so exhausted for you yet still very excited. You have your way with words and you have a way of making everything sound perfect. Amazing writing here lala 👏

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LaLa ✿Indie Maker✿'s avatar

Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate it. Blessings!

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Janice Airhart's avatar

You must be exhausted! Wishing you the best of luck getting the services you and Shade need.

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LaLa ✿Indie Maker✿'s avatar

Somewhat, but more depressed because I haven’t been able to write like I want to. Thank you Janice for your encouragement! Take Care 🫶

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